Sunday 10 May 2015

MIM: Anxiety

Meow, so this post is going to be a different sort of blog post. This may be slightly triggering for some people. This blog post is going to be about anxiety. I was going to call it my anxiety story but I am going to try and keep it more to a general post... If you're slightly triggered from anxiety, anxiety attacks/the effects of anxiety then this blog post might not be for you.

So, for a long while now, I have realised that I have anxiety and yes it is self diagnosed but theres a reason as my anxiety offsets when im in certain places which includes the doctors therefore I have put it off in my mind as no one would come with me and I couldn't do it. I went in once and ended up running straight out and had to rest at the side as I literally couldn't breathe from being there...

So basically, anxiety affects a lot of people in very different ways and I'm going to try and talk about it in a normal way but it will probably sound awkward... Anxiety is the word that we use to describe feelings of unease/fear etc. We may all experience anxiety when we're nervous about something. This could be a job interview or a big presentation or exams or anything like that...

We usually relate anxiety and anxiety attacks to the flight/fight response... The fight/flight response links to evolution When you feel under threat, your body releases hormones such as adrenaline. The hormones can help prepare you to either fight the situation or fly away from it. When the danger has stopped your body releases other hormones to help you calm down which can cause shakiness... Our bodies naturally do this and we can't help it...

Anxiety for me is a weird thing... I literally worry about everything. I worry about getting on the wrong train even though im on the right one but the conductor hasn't announced the stops, i'm worried that my friends don't actually like me, I worry that people are judging me when I eat so sometimes I zone out and imagine that theyre not there or I move to an isolated corner and eat there... I have panic attacks and I'm worried that I'm going to have a panic attack in the middle of a public place or that I wont even get the job at an interview before they've interviewed me. I can't go to a gig/event/outing with friends without knowing at least 2 weeks to a month in advance so I could be ready for everything within my head. I literally am worried about everything unless I have someone that I trust with me which is difficult because I worry about everyone screwing me over so I rarely trust people...

I'm going to talk about panic/anxiety attacks next so if you find it a bit distressing then you can finish reading here or scroll past or whatever suits you the best.  A panic attack is an exaggeration of your body's responses to fear/stress etc. It's the build up of physical sensations. This could include pounding heartbeat, sweating, nausea, chest pains, shakiness, unable to breathe etc. When I have had a panic attack, I have definitely felt a lot of these and this could be anywhere. I have had a panic attack in college, in the middle of Leeds, in the middle of Alexandra Palace in the midst of 7000+ people and so forth. I just feel that the best way to help someone that is having a panic attack is to tell them everything is going to be okay and hug them instead of telling them to breathe as it feels a bit stupid as if we could breathe then we wouldn't be having a panic attack...

So I'm going to leave this at here and I hope that you have enjoyed the blog post. I shall see you tomorrow for another MIM post. I hope that you watch the rambly video that goes along with this post. I shall see you tomorrow for another Meowing In May post!

Today's Video: https://youtu.be/6-RVOHYJ4m8

Meow!
Jamie x

1 comment:

  1. I was diagnosed with anxiety a few years ago, however it's normally a lot worse if it's leading up to something important... For instance, in April I had to travel to the city to take a training course for my new job... I knew it was approaching but felt completely fine until the morning of my travels (thankfully my dad drove!). I had been sitting in the classroom for at least two hours until all the working up I had done previously hit me - I was mortified. I ended up having to be escorted from the room feeling very faint, and spent half an hour being sick into a bin whilst waiting for my lift who was an hour away *sigh* I hate the fact it's becoming such a problem, but I've also started to step out of my comfort zone in the hope that it will eventually help me x



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